I am aware that I am less than some people prefer me to be,
but most people are unaware that I am so much more than what they see.
— Douglas Pagels

Friday, June 24, 2022

Renewed

I don’t really know why, but I renewed my domain for this blog. I don’t have much to say these days, at least not publicly, but I think I will continue to preserve the domain name so it isn’t snatched up by some weirdo or spammer.

I want to thank those who gave to my sister’s go fund me. Losing her is still unfathomable, and I don’t know how the kids will manage, but they will. They have to.

I don’t have the health to be much help at all. Thankfully, John has plenty of friends, coworkers, and relatives pitching in while he figures out how to resume and maintain the life and household he and Kayla built together in West Virginia.

Things are pretty dystopian lately, with all of the shootings and horrific legislation. Pride month has certainly been an odd thing to observe, as someone who is paying a little more attention to it nowadays. There is still a great deal of bigotry in this country despite how far we have progressed over the last several decades. In comparison to other progressive countries, we are nowhere near where we need to be. Overall, I just want every American to be safe and to be allowed to live equally and authentically. But, I also wish I could move to another country. This one is failing miserably.

I still live in the same place. The problematic neighbor who caused so much disturbance over a period of five years was finally evicted this week. I had just told myself that I would never be rid of the situation, that there was no hope. A confirmation by management of lease violation followed by a half-hour psychotic episode threatening to kill my next door neighbor was the straw. I can’t believe it took this long and that much escalation, but it’s finally over and my neighbors and I feel safer now. I hope the next neighbor is sane. This is a multiplex, so we share a building and hear everything. It’s inconvenient and stressful.

HUD inspection is next week. I’ve made a lot of progress in my storage room, and there shouldn’t be any complaints. There remains no evidence that they’re moving me to a smaller apartment, so I am still “overhoused.” I was told by the manager that the smaller apartments are occupied by bachelors who will probably never leave, but if one of them dies, I’ll have to be moved.

I finally have WIFI again now that the Prez expanded the Affordable Connectivity Program to include internet as an option. I have a basic package which will cost me around $24 a month. Maybe I will find the energy to resume reading, writing, and enrolling in free open classes again. As of right now, that’s a no-go. I’m too weak and tired to do much of anything.

Every day is a significant challenge, but I’m trying my best to keep going.