I've done a horrible job with my blog this year, for many reasons. One of those reasons is losing two of my laptop devices to old age. One of them completely died, abruptly with no warning. The other is barely hanging on, but frequently gives me the gray screen of death, refuses to load outside of safe mode, and daily powers off for no reason. The poor Macbook, which I have called Bessie, is without a doubt on its last leg. I'm probably going to reformat it and sell it for parts in 2020. It was an incredible investment, being a 2009 model, purchasing it at 50% off, and seeing it last so many years in spite of its clumsy owner (that would be me). I couldn't possibly complain about it.
I do have a small Acer Aspire One, the prequel to modern tablets. It's the flip phone of the tablet world, and it's adorable. I still use it to listen to music, but it's not fast or comfortable enough to run a website, so anything you've seen from me lately has been done from my phone. And anyone who knows me knows phones and I don't get along. I simply put the blog on the back burner because it was the most convenient thing to do.
There are other reasons, of course, including my health which has been a whirlwind - tornado is probably a more accurate word - of pain and problems. With the family issues and the housing issues and the doctor issues on top of that, and all of the stress and grieving that comes with all of it, I've been a mess. Worse than a mess. I've been a catastrophe.
But I'm still here. And I will continue to be, at least, I think I will. I received a letter from social security a few days ago letting me know they've canceled my disability review. It's a great relief, as I'm not supposed to be under any stress, and my doctor is too busy to handle tasks in a timely manner most of the time, much less to talk to them about how impossible I am by a deadline. So it's a burden off of my back to know that SSA believes I'm the least of their problems. They're correct, after all. I received a letter a couple of days later informing me of my 2020 income, of which I am grateful for in spite of how hard it is to live this way.
I also recertified my public housing status and signed a lease. I'll be here at the same apartment in 2020. As I stated previously, I do plan to continue to put myself on waiting lists for smoke-free housing, but I will remain here until a better opportunity arises.
I don't normally condone lawbreaking, of course, but thanks to whoever wrote this in the handicapped restroom at the park. Shame on you, but also, you're a real gem. Ha! Bless you. :-)
(I also never open my camera in a restroom. I made sure I was completely alone before I did.)
I'll be back soon. I have a new-to-me device (Merry Xmas to me?), which is allowing me to write much easier and faster as of today. I think it'll give me the motivation to get my crap together and write a blog worth reading again. I'm going to see what I can do.
Thanks for sticking around. xoxo
