Friday, February 25, 2011

A minute to breathe and blog

Well howdy. How's everybody doin'?

Just taking a minute, since it's been a few days.

A lot has happened this month, but I won't be blogging about it all.

Some things are better left unblogged. Trust me.

I do have a long blog to write, still...concerning disappointment. I'll get to it eventually. Still processing.

School has had its ups and downs. On the upside, I have a 100 in Psychology. I would have never thought in a million years that I would do well in Psychology, much less LIKE IT. I like it a lot. I even spoke to a university today about their Psychology degree program. What unexpected craziness...my head is spinning.

On the downside, I had to drop Biology. It was too much to handle and not designed for me whatsoever, especially while dealing with my health, family circumstances, work (or lack of), and other classes. I have enrolled in Astronomy short term to make up the science requirement, and I hope I don't regret it.

In the summer, a year of Algebra begins. Lord help me...that's all I can say.

I haven't taught in a few weeks...I posted a video to my students tonight. Still feeling very badly. Can't seem to get well and it's wearing me down to the point of aggravation, depression, whatever...I'm just so sick and tired of being sick and tired. It's overwhelming. Words fail me beyond that.

Big Psychology test tomorrow at school, so off to bed I go.

Friday, February 18, 2011

Health Rant 2011

I feel like this entire year so far has been nothing but a health rant.

That's probably because I've been sick THE ENTIRE YEAR so far.

Two days after getting off the Cipro, I woke up with a sinus infection. Ears, throat, face...all hurt. Nose running like a faucet half the time, and the other half the time I can't breathe in through my nose at all. I could barely eat today, but I'm drinking a lot of fluids. I am not going to the doc unless I don't improve...God forbid.

I've also confirmed another kidney stone...this time on my left side. Flank pain has shifted into left side pain, and I'm passing a TON of sediment. But at least the stone is moving, which means it's small and shouldn't send me to the ER. On four potassium a day and I believe it has helped keep the stones small enough to pass without much drama. I don't have a clue how many I've passed now...lost count a long time ago.

Of course with this sinus crap, I'm sneezing, and last night I ripped cartilage in my chest again. I wanted to say EVERY FOUR LETTER WORD in the book. As usual, I opted to double over and sniffle for a while instead. Valium is my friend once again...it is the only thing that helps me to function with these injuries. I'm living on a heating pad. Throughout the night, I alternate it between my back/side/hip, my chest, and my ears. Still shoving Clindamycin in them twice a day as directed, but they hurt like the devil anyway. I find it interesting that Dr. A prescribed that to put in my ears, when it is patented as a topical acne treatment. That explains why it's 40 bucks a tube. At any rate, it is an anti-bacterial so I get why he prescribed it. He could see the infection just by looking at my ears.

I'm in bed almost all the time. When I'm not, I'm running errands but utterly miserable doing so. I've just got to get well...I'm so tired of this crap. I've been sick all winter long...actually it started in mid November, which is Autumn. So I hope everyone understands my frustration in this. For the love of God...enough is enough.

I have got to get well. I have to be able to work. I have to pay bills. I have to be able to go to school. I have obligations. I have to overcome this. Living like this is not an option.

I'm losing a lot of battles lately, but somehow, I'm going to win this war.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Today's Doc Appointment

I have had a double ear infection since mid November. I was put on Bactrim for 14 days. The infection almost went away, but not quite, and when the meds were done the infection came right back full force. So I called the doc office and they called in another 10 days of Bactrim in December. I took that and the infection started to go away again, but not by the time I finished the meds. I was still under the weather for Christmas and by New Years I was sick in bed again. I called the doc and they wanted me to come back in. Financially impossible as the deposit is $100 and I didn't have it, so I called the low income clinic where my brother works and told them what was going on. They graciously called in more Bactrim and I took it for another 10 days. It did nothing. Over the river and through the woods and phone tag with the doc office for a week, the nurse asked me to come in but the appointment desk would not work me in like she said they would. I finally got my brother involved and I had an appointment less than 24 hours later. It was today.

Dr. A and I discussed my history of chronic ear infections since infancy and how I am no longer fully recovering from them, and he said "you know this can go to your brain, right?" YOU DON'T SAY......

I was quick to let him know that mine and brother's stepbrother died of that very thing 2 years ago at age 29. (For the new folks on my list, Ryan had a tooth infection that spread to his ear, then to his brain where he had a massive stroke and had to eventually be removed from life support)

Dr. A acknowledged the huge red flag and ordered a 1000mg Rocephin injection, X-rays of my ears and sinuses to check for cysts, polyps, fluid, or damage, and an immunoglobulin panel because he believes my immune system is gone at this point. I agree completely.

The immunoglobulin test was $80, and I couldn't pay to have it done, so my brother loaned me the money for it as well as my doc appointment. And bought me lunch at that. I owe the big bro...hero of the day (as he often is).

In addition to the Rocephin injection (which is currently kicking my BUTT), Dr. A prescribed ten days of Cipro, two months of Clindamycin, and Loratadine (which I imagine I'll be taking forever...we'll see).

He said I really need to see an infectious disease specialist, but realizes that isn't financially possible. He's very concerned though and treating this aggressively, which is a far cry from my last visit with him where he didn't want to deal with my HKPP at all. So I'm thankful that he's taking this seriously.

I'll get the immunoglobulin test results next week and post an update.