I am aware that I am less than some people prefer me to be,
but most people are unaware that I am so much more than what they see.
— Douglas Pagels

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Thursday Periodic Paralysis Update

My body is making a slow attempt to recover from this past weekend's episode, just as it was making the attempt after last month's episode. My life revolves around potassium. I take a dose, then count the minutes until I can take another one. I am moving better than I was, but still in bed most of the time and on a walker otherwise. My severe weakness is generalized (overall body) as the last two episodes of paralysis were.

As if I needed anything else to complete my week, I have a kidney stone en route in my lower left side. At least it's moving this time. I haven't brought out the pain meds yet, and don't plan to unless it becomes utterly intolerable.

Speaking of meds, the current ones: Effer-K 25 MEQ x 4, Mag Ox 400 x 2, Claritin once a day, Avapro 150 once a day. As always, the Valium and Demerol are PRN for kidney stones, migraines, and pulled muscles/cartilage. I almost never take them. The meds will expire before I take them all.

I hate pills. I swear to God I hate them so much. I'd do anything to avoid taking medication. I'd do anything to have a body that worked properly. I'd do anything to have quality of life.

Sometimes, all of the effort seems to be in vain.

I pray for a method to this madness.