I've been wanting to write about 2010, but I can't bring myself to do it yet. I feel the need to wait until I can collect my thoughts...there are so many...and really think it all through. "Through" being the key word, because I desperately want 2011 to be a year of renewed hope and restoration in my body, mind, and spirit.
So for now...I wait. I'm taking time to focus on my body and the constant attention it demands as it fights tooth and nail to break me down, both physically and emotionally. I feel like the clock is ticking...ticking...a sound that I can't escape. Living with a sense of urgency as I've often talked about, but with less "saneness" (a cute word one of my teachers used one day) over the past year than usual. I'm still trying to decide if that's ok...just a part of the process, as if I'm a piece of abstract art that some people "get" and others very much DO NOT GET. At all. I plan to eventually blog this out of my system, and let it go. But for now...I feel the need to heal, in a sense.
I pray that time is the healer that it claims to be.
Before I go, just a few links to blogs that I've added to my Dash over the past week:
ART CAR CENTRAL!
NEED I SAY MORE?
I'M IN LOVE!
EXTREME COUPONING!!! I spent $21 on $50 worth of stuff at Walgreens tonight by using coupons, register rewards, and scoping out sales. The *COUGHfamilydiscountCOUGH* didn't hurt either (thanks Chris)! When I have the funds, my next stop is Super Target, with a stack of coupons in hand.
That's my Coach Scheffy. :) I've been the self-proclaimed cheerleader of his Team Beachbody group for almost 3 years now...hard to believe! I can't do all the stuff that they do, but I cheer them on and they inspire me to keep on keeping on with this battle for my health. I've made wonderful friends through Team Scheffy and I'm so grateful.
Talk to y'all soon...