Friday, December 31, 2010

Goodbye (and good riddance) 2010! Happy New Year 2011!!!

Happy New Years Eve! If you're new to My Roller Coaster Life, I'm Kelli and I have been blogging for nearly 10 years now in various places on the world wide web. Every new year, I create a list of goals (or resolutions, if you want to call them that) for the upcoming year. Then on New Years Eve, I review them and post new goals for the upcoming year. Thanks for reading and wish me luck!


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A Recap of 2010 Goals:
1. Continue college education 
HOLY SCHOOL DAZE, BATMAN...25 HOURS AND A 4.0 GPA IN 2010. THANK YOU GOD! AND THANK YOU TO MY SWEET TEACHERS, TOO!

2. Return to Florida for Bob Ross training (either Florals cert or Landscape/Seascape audit) 
HALLELUJAH, I STILL CANNOT BELIEVE I ACCOMPLISHED THIS!!! I SWEAR IT DARN NEAR KILLED ME PHYSICALLY, BUT I DID IT. FLORALS CERTIFIED! A MILLION THANKS TO MY STUDENTS AND LOVED ONES WHO MADE THIS HAPPEN FINANCIALLY, AND TO THE BOYS AT THE BOB ROSS ART WORKSHOP FOR PUTTING UP WITH ME FOR THREE STRAIGHT WEEKS...AGAIN!

3. Become more organized in every aspect of my life 
AHA...HAHAHA *SNORT* YEAH RIGHT! OK I REALLY DID BECOME MORE ORGANIZED IN SOME ASPECTS, BUT NOT OTHERS. SO I GIVE MYSELF HALF A CREDIT FOR THIS ONE.

4. Find a way to pay off some medical bills 
I PAID OFF MY PRIMARY PHYSICIAN, BUT HAVE THE REST OF MY LIFE TO GO IN MEDICAL PAYMENTS ELSEWHERE. SHOVE IT, SYSTEMIC DISEASE. I HATE YOUR GUTS. THAT IS ALL.

5. Put a significant dent in one or more manuscripts 
NEGATIVE, GHOST RIDER. DIDN'T TOUCH THEM. DIDN'T HAVE TIME! SOMEDAY, IT WILL HAPPEN.

6. Knock out at least one item on my 2010 Bucket List 
I AM COLLECTING POSTCARDS AGAIN, I THINK I INCREASED MY VOLUNTEER AND CHARITY WORK THIS YEAR, AND I AM (FOREVER) LEARNING TO DRAW. I DOUBT I EVER REMOVE THESE FROM MY BUCKET LIST BUT I BELIEVE I "KNOCKED OUT" THESE FEW WELL ENOUGH TO QUALIFY FOR COMPLETING THIS RESOLUTION.
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And away we go...the NEW list!!!

The Mainstays (aka the stuff that's ongoing and on my list every year):

Reach/maintain a healthy weight and keep blood panel numbers at an acceptable level. Losing twelve pounds and lowering LDL cholesterol levels are on the agenda in 2011. I've done it before so I hope to do it again despite my significant decline in health and increase in meds.

Stay involved in one or more charities/ministries. No problem. It gives me a reason to live.

Read more, write more, and learn more. Most definitely. As I said last year about this, it's inevitable as I am in college! :-)


Be a good friend and relative. This is always my prayer.


Goals For 2011:

1. Figure out what to do about my college degree, and make it happen.

2. Road trip out of state to visit family and meet my new niece due to arrive in March!

3. Increase and become more organized in my teaching business.

4. Decrease my debt, whatever it takes.

5. Put a dent in one of my manuscripts...article, short story, fiction, non-fiction...who cares! Just work on something!!!

6. Remain honest and aware, pray, and strive to improve myself each and every day.


I decided not to list getting well as a resolution, because I am doing my best. God will have to do the rest.


I will be going into great detail about 2010 and beyond in a separate entry. It has been a challenging and sometimes very difficult year, and I need to get it out of my system so I can do my best to move forward.

I wish each and every visitor to my website a safe and happy 2011! Hugs and blessings to you all!

Love,
Kelli

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

A few more pics from this week!


I matted and mounted several pieces of art for my portfolio...always in progress.





I found a new love...soap making! I made over 50 bars the week of Christmas, and gave several out to family members. I can't wait to buy more supplies so I can get really creative. I'm hoping to reopen my online gift store from years past! We'll see what 2011 brings...stay tuned!




Mmmm garlic veggie steak bake! After a trip to Winn Dixie, I made this. So easy and delicious!



Just put the finishing touches on my mixed media abstract, Galactic Escape, now for sale!

P.S. - I hate the layout of my portfolio page, if anyone has any suggestions. Needing an easy to deal with Gulf Coast themed background, and as you all know by now, I am not HTML savvy so a template that I can copy and paste is preferred.




Ah, the joys of being single. I can wear fuzzy mismatched socks, to accompany my Eeyore pajamas, with absolutely no regrets. :)


I will recap 2010 and talk about past and future resolutions as I've done on my blogs for nearly ten years now, so stay tuned for the "big one" on New Years Eve!

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Christmas 2010 in Pictures


I couldn't sleep, so I got up at the crack of dawn and ate some of my uncle's awesome seafood gumbo...



Then went around the corner to my family's house. I received some nice gifts, including a set of baking pans...



Paint brushes...a starving arteest can never get enough of these...



A cookbook...woohoo!



My brother gave me an awesome Garfield card (love Garfield) with a generous amount of cash enclosed. Very grateful for that as I have a doc appointment coming up...



I spent some time with the stepfamily and had some awesome food and received a nice card and some cozy gloves. Then I went on to Mississippi where my mom was waiting. Her tree is always awesomely elaborate.



She makes the best cornbread too!



I received some goodies in a stocking. Notice the Land 'O Lakes Cocoa hiding in the bag with the Hershey's. Talk about a double-whammy of win...



And Freddy surprised me with this! A custom Precious Moments figurine with Eeyore! I collect Eeyore, and collected Precious Moments once upon a time (before Hurricane Katrina) but had not received one in years. I was stunned at how perfect it was for me, and it even has my freakin' name on it!!! Sweet! Mom and Freddy also gave me some grocery money, which was very helpful...



...since my fridge currently looks like this. Yeah, it could use a good scrub...I know. I'll get to that before going to Winn Dixie tomorrow. :-) Mom and Freddy have come to my rescue this year in this extremely difficult time with my health and finances and I am so grateful.



Unfortunately, the day ended with a tremendous migraine...



...but nonetheless, I am blessed!

I hope all of my dear friends have had a wonderful Christmas with those you love.

God bless,
Kelli

Merry Christmas!




Wish I could share a big 'ol hug (and my chocolate cream fudge) with you all! :-)

Thank you for being a part of my life and I hope everyone has a happy holiday and a blessed 2011!

Love,
Kelli

Friday, December 17, 2010

Hard reality. Tough honesty. I don't really know what to title this...

I've been depressed since a recent club field trip. We had lunch on site and I was the last person to arrive at the cafe (I walk with a cane and have to take breaks). I ate more slowly than usual while everyone else played around. My teacher/adviser got impatient as I took another bite and said "Oh come on". I apologized for being slow, but didn't bother to explain that I'm having significant esophageal pain and difficulties swallowing and breathing right now. I imagine he's tired of me explaining myself and I know I definitely am, so I decided that it wasn't worth it for fear that he would only take it as a lame excuse. I left it at "Sorry for eating so slowly" and moved on. I think like a lot of people in my life, he just doesn't know what to do with me at times. It's a little obvious that he has been frustrated with me off and on for the past 13 months or so, but he has remained positive and professional. It's his job, and he does it pretty darn well for the most part. I think the world of him and probably always will.

This triggered a flashback, however. Of the ex-husband variety and his gradual loss of patience with me and my condition. As much as I don't want to offend any of my male readers by this, I can't help but mention that the "over it" feeling is something that I get from men often. Doesn't matter who they are...friend, boyfriend, boss, family member, teacher...many of them simply get tired of "dealing" with me and eventually react. Usually somewhere between a few months to a couple years. I guess my ex-husband is the best example of this...a total 180 degree turn...from "I know you're very sick but it doesn't matter...I love you and want you to be my wife and I will take care of you" to complete annoyance that quickly lead to resentment, zero patience, fits of rage, infidelity...I could list a lot of other things, but I'll spare you. I thank God for singlehood, even in the tough times when I feel utterly alone. It's very hard to accept that this is my reality, though, and the thought of people in general getting tired of "the sick girl" time and again for the rest of my life is more disheartening than I can express. But hell, what can I do about it...I'm tired of me, too.

Anyway, I resigned from my officer position in the club that day. It was the right thing to do and they agree (silence speaks volumes, that's for sure). I know they don't need me and that has never been my attitude, but I care very much and investing in the club and its members was a mission of love. I still embrace the place and people with utmost sincerity and I don't regret my time there, but I am simply too sick, in too much pain, and too stressed to handle it right now.

I'm honestly not handling much of anything anymore. I don't want to live like this. I just want to be normal.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

This is my 500th post! AND THANK YOU!!!

I have the most SUPER AWESOMELY FABULOUS FRIENDS in the world!!! I'm blown away by the number of votes I received in the Gulf Coast Artist Index & Art Resources contest! A little over 40% of the total votes!

The painting won 2nd place and is on display for sale through Art With Heart at The Gallery Ocean Springs. People from all over the world voted. Your support and efforts were CRAZY-AMAZING!
Thanks a million!
Love,
Kelli

Monday, December 13, 2010

It's a close race!

I'm about 4.5% behind first place as of right now...I'm blown away that I'm even in an art contest to begin with! Thanks so much for continuing to vote each day!
http://www.googinsgallery.com/Contests.html
The winner will be announced Dec 15th.
I appreciate it!!!
Kelli

Friday, December 10, 2010

Could you vote for me please??? :-)

Hello friends, I am honored to have been chosen as a finalist in a local contest called "Mother Nature In Motion". I submitted my original seascape "Storm's Rolling In", seen below:



I'm one of five finalists and it comes down to a public vote here: http://www.googinsgallery.com/Contests.html

Thank you for your consideration!!! I appreciate it so much!

Kelli

P.S. - You can vote once each day through December 15th! :-)

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Wordless Wednesday

Mini-Update

Been really sick. Still not up to par. Calling doc in the morning.

Have a new (used) car as of a week ago. Had a flat tire today and the check engine light just came on. Ask me how thrilled I am...I dare you.

Took my last history test today. Got an A. Thank God the teacher is dropping everyone's lowest grades, because I missed the big test due to being ill. Because of her decision, I keep my overall A. Grace abounds at MGCCC.

Stopped by the art studio and said hello to everyone. Talked to my favorite teacher for a few and I'm gonna try to go on a field trip with the art club on the 10th...here - http://www.georgeohr.org/index.html

Can't freaking wait. I hope I feel up to it.

Still working on the drawing final from summer. You know...the big one I've mentioned. I keep telling myself that I will finish it by Christmas. I have a TON of stuff in progress, but this is priority #1 for sure where my art is concerned, with the exception of my workshops.

Speaking of, I haven't been able to teach for a little while due to being sick, so I'm pretty sure I've lost my mind for even considering THIS - http://gulfcoastartworks.blogspot.com/2010/08/gulf-coast-bob-ross-holiday.html

If I pull that off, it will be a miracle from the Almighty. But I'm going to give it a shot, and I know it will be a blast. I love my students.

That's all for now...gotta lay down.