Sunday, July 26, 2009

I am not well.

I'm getting worse.

My family asked that I file for SS Disability again.

They see that I'm going downhill.

Yet they have no clue how hard this really is.

In horrible pain 24/7/365...I never escape it.

I am so weak that I can barely use my arms and legs sometimes. I almost didn't make it up and down the steps tonight.

I waited till I got home to cry.

I don't know what to do.

I've made a doc appointment to discuss my options...again.

I am absolutely at my wits end.

I don't want to be like this.


Mare said...

Oh Kelli...I am so sorry you have to go thru this. Bill and i are going thru a tough time too. Actually, every day is a struggle of some kind when you are a quadriplegic (and married to one)i know how hard it is sometimes to get the doctors to listen to you and understand what you are going thru, but keep trying. And i have found that most of my stress comes from fighting what is and trying to swim upstream against the current.i hope you have a doctor or family advocate or friend by your side. If you trust the doctors, then try to let go and let God take over, ask God to work thru them and try to heal. love, mare

Kelli said...

KELLI!! Clearly I have been out of the loop and not keep up with you. I'm so sorry to hear about your pain. I hope you feel better soon and get well. Pain can really get you down and I don't want you to be down.

Too Many Hats said...

I hope the doc can help you make some decisions that will help you feel better. I cannot imagine what it is to be in that much constant pain.